My Perfect was created by me to try and help combat my battle with depression, anxiety and black days. I was battling daily with lack of motivation, self worth and struggling to believe I would ever smile again. I was a wife and a mother and working part time, I was struggling to get through day to day and was not being a good Mum, a good wife, a good colleague or even a good friend (or so I believed) I was listening to the radio and the song A Perfect Day played for comic relief, I sat and cried in a lay by in the middle of nowhere in Wales and wondered what a ‘Perfect Day’ would be or even a ‘Perfect Moment’. It was then that I decided to get help and started to carry a book around with me everywhere, I would log logs of tiny little positives in each and every day.
My book filled up, I still had black days and most days I struggled to find even one perfect. My entries would at times be ‘I got out of bed’ because that was enough. Slowly I started adding in a smile from someone, a kind word, a cuppa with a friend and slowly, day by day, step by step I realised that I was OK and I was meant to do something. My Perfect Journal was born and my idea was just to ‘make a difference’. If I could make a difference to ONE person with my journal than all my turmoil and journey would be worth it. I still get black days and I still use my journal daily. I hope that something from my journey will help you and that you manage to find your ‘perfect’ in your days – Love Ali x